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| So today me an 2 of my buddies Bill and Rusty hiked up a mountain for 3 hours, we w alked close to 4 miles there and back so i guess 8 miles, the total trip took 5 hours, it was incredible. I saw some of the prettiest views i have ever seen, i climbed a waterfall, it was awesome, the way down we found a better and faster way to get down, but kind of dangerous try sliding between 1500-2000 feet on your but, it hurt a couple of times but i'm still walking witha few cuts and bruises. oh yeah and Bill accidently stabbed himself in the thigh, long story here are some pics, bye
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| So i have found in my life that there is not much that makes me happy anymore, a few things that do are:
- Andrew Freehauf
- Jayne Layman
- My Friends
- My Home
- My dog
- Sometimes my family
- My Music
I went to a friends gravesite seeking closure and all i gathered from going was more pain and sorrow, i find myself looking for happiness in things that don't matter, in all honesty i'm not happy at WOLBI, and i don't know why, i keep noticing that my life seems to become more and more meaningless when i'm here, where is the JOY that i'm suppose to have, because right now i cant find it or grasp it
And can anyone tell me why I'm not finding the happiness in God that everyone else has?
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| Well this is my blog so i figure i can speak my mind so that is exactly what i'm going to do.... friday i lost position as an RA, it happens, not every person measures up all the time, i'm not writing this to disrespect the school in anyway as a matter of fact though i do not like the decision i respect it and will continue to give the respect to the school and it's employees that they deserve, many things in my life, i will admit do need some work, but i have made some long strides in my life and in where i'm at spiritually, but there are areas that people are in disagreement with me, i must say losing my position as as RA is going to be hard, but the thought of withdrawling as an RA crossed my mind... but either way it is hard, it is literally the only thing i enjoy here, moving dorms is harder yet, i feel like i have established somewhat of a brotherhood with some of the guys, there is 3 weeks left in the quarter in which i will be spending time in prayer for many different things, then it's decision tim e for ME.... we till i have my thoughts and emotions more closely gathered, this is it
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| Well..... I have been very frustrated lately with life, included in that is: the school, my parents, and some random people. You know i just wish i could run away from all my problems.... but they followed me to school, they follow me everywhere..... i wish i could just go somewhere and start a new life..... many thoughts going through my head right now, and i know that with which ever decision i make i will have consequences to face, which i am willing to face.... parting of growing up is taking responsibilty for your actions and i dont have a problem doing that, believe it or not...... i also wish people would believe in me, maybe they do but whenever i talk to them i feel like i'm going to grow up to be a failure, but if i want to do something then i put my mind to it there are somethings that my mind is set on in one way or another.... oh and i have one question before i leave- how often to feel like you are out of place?
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| Life
Sometimes, I'm just down in the pits, you feel like you are as low as you can possibly get. That is what I am feeling right now, I find myself pondering issues of life. Wondering why things happen, and how they affect me. There are times I wish every difficulty in life would just go away.
On the BRIGHTER side of things, I have started to enjoy what I call rednecking. Wearing the flannel and the work boots, and most definitely spitting the wood. I think I want to have a cabin in the midle of nowhere when I get older, someplace to go for a long weekend, with the family and just redneck it, I'll be back soon to write more.
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